Yes, it was just that horrible.
But in the Bible it says:
I asked God to help me to forgive the people that were hurting me and my family. I asked God to forgive me for what I had done in response (even though it was mostly to myself). I thanked God for bringing this situation about because... well i didn't really give a reason. That's because I didn't have one. I just said thank you for being there really. And everything was a bit more peaceful.
My dad said something later that really hit me in sooooooooo many different ways. He said that he wasn't ashamed of the gospel of Jesus Christ, that he wasn't afraid to keep working for God. He wasn't afraid for his rep and he wasn't afraid for the future. He was keeping his mind on God and His coming and the place that He is preparing for all that love Him. When my dad said those things, I automatically remembered a song by the Brooklyn Tabernacle that is entitled "I Am Not Ashamed Of The Gospel". This was inspirational to me because I was asked to sing the song of mediation on November 14 and I wasn't really sure what I was going to sing. This song now means so much to me because I am a girl of what I call anger-power and when I get angry, I am a monster. That's not cool or Christ-like and the lyrics in this song remind me that I shouldn't worry about what others think about me or how they treat me.
Words are so powerful and they can really speak to you. I am proud to be a Christian and it doesn't matter to me if the people who I have always believed to be my church family ridicule me and my family. As long as I have my mind on eternity, everything will work it self out.